Thursday, November 09, 2006
Voices of the Dragon VIII
During the rehearsal for feng nian ji, i broke my 1st string, i broke another 1st string while tuning, and broke a 2nd string during donghai... when i got down the stage again to fix my 2nd string it was cool to see the expressions on the faces of pple who saw it zzz... hl juz shook his head and lester gave the "What!?" look... the rehearsal for chun dao yi he was also horrible... felt so super nervous... and finally understood how having butterflies in my stomach feels like... felt abit queasy...din expect myself to be so nervous even during the rehearsals when it was juz playing in front of pple i noe(most of them..)...cudn't lun properly, miss notes etc... much worse den during usual practice.. after that rehearsal, mr yeo told me my right hand was funi... and lhl juz kept telling us not to be nervous... i noe tt i shouldn't be... but knowing what should be done is one thing, doing it is another...sooo depressed after the rehearsal... and wif the string breakings.. felt really pessimistic bout the actual performance... at the moment i wondered how things wud turned out like that... wanted to pass my "last" day in RICO and RI fruitfully and memorably... what if my string breaks... wad if history repeats itself and my zou2 falls out... what if i screw up the duet.... there were so many questions in my mind... sat backstage after the chun dao yi he rehearsals for like 10+mins... and jia huang had to console me zzz when it was supposed to be the other way round... after the 10+mins... decided that it wudn't help if i continue to 坐以待毙, so went down to practice again wif chun yin... took around 30mins++ for me to calm myself down and recover fully from the horrible rehearsal... den i played the whole thing once thru again feeling relaxed and it went pretty well!!! I realized that once i get nervous everything was guna be over...so i juz tried not to think bout it... and kept reminding myself that getting nervous was useless... feeling more "high", i went back to the practice room and started talking to pple and started taking photos!!!!! Using others cameras zZz... ji an sorta changed... he became veh tamed... and inquisitive... tot he was acting wierd... but den got to noe tt tt's juz him... he started asking me bout the "stand" for the liuqin and stuffs... den during dinner yongjun kept telling me not the duet lousi is the song not nice... cudn't take a proper photo wif yiheng zZz... n sng zheng... n lhl bought bananas for me n chun yin... tot that was realli nice... he said it wud calm us down... den finally it was time for the concert... started to panic abit again.. but i think the photo taking and stuffs made me feel more relaxed... Before the actual concert started.. i collected luck from many many many pple... by shaking their hands...
To the concert....
When i entered the stage... was quite shocked... the audience were sooo... active, lively, cool!! Cud hear shouting of names and there were cat calling everything!! Super cool... reminds me of like some superstar concert den when the star comes onto stage the fans juz start shouting and shouting...i tried to find pple i noe.. and saw my classmates immediately... they were sitting directly opposite where tanbo face... n yujun's family was sitting behind them! Cudn't find other pple... cudn't see zixin,lukas,tph or even my parents zzz... den it started... i wanted to put emotions into wadeva songs we were guna play on tt day cuz it was the last day... but was too worried bout chun dao yi he to do that... but it turned out quite okae... tried to restrain myself from playing too harshly in case the string breaks.... feng nian ji was okae i guess, and taiwan was okae too but there was a part where the orchestra was not together...After the 2 songs started getting abit nervous... it was ye di de hua, the sec1 piece and den chun dao yi he... althou i was MUCH MUCH less nervous den during the rehearsals, still felt abit panicky... and ye di de hua was over so fast!! Felt nervous again when i realized it's here adi...
Just before me n chun yin went on stage, hwee leong,boyi,kb and jj came to wish us good luck...tt time was too nervous to think bout anithing else cept the duet but thinking of it now it was quite heart-warming...den finally heard the emcee annoucing me and chun yin's name... it was time to go out... walking towards my seat i heard my classmates shouting my name...mebbe tt made me less nervous... and mebbe to not disappoint my classmates who had came down or pple who had passed their luck to me, i was much less nervous and the duet went well... althou chun yin missed some parts... but it was okae... cant describe how glad i was after the item was over...This experience really let me understand how being nervous can screw everything up... this shall be something i'll keep in mind for some time...was veh happy n juz getting "hyperactivated" after that... went downstairs n ji an was like "Can u play tt song? I want to listen... very nice"... was so shocked...felt like he wasn't being himself... but still played aniwae... den chun yin was quite unhappy wif himself... he din perform up to his own expectations i guess... but well.. he's only a sec2... if i were to play chun dao yin he in sec2....it wud be a disaster...den went out during the intermission and saw zixin and mun hui...got good comments! Was quite a relief... mebbe they were trying to be nice... but still haha...den found out jessly heard the performance of the 1st 4 songs over the fone...
Before the next session of orchestral pieces started, when lhl was tuning my lq, he asked if i was joining syco...I'll take this opportunity to say something about tt... signed up for the zhongruan auditions adi... but i also found out bout my other competitors... there are 2 more and 1 of them is the brother of syco erhu principal... the one who can plays jian qi(grade10) on zhongruan... hmmmx... so... game over le bah i guess...
*Aniwae*
Decided to enjoy the last few songs im guna play as a member of RICO... again the audience were noisy when we went on stage again... n nobodi sat... veh confused...din noe if it was lester or me who was supposed to give the cue zzz... so everyone stood up while the emcee talked zzz.. den boyi had to tell us to sit down when he came in zzz... no comments for huan xin... long was still rushy even when mr yeo tried veh hard to tell us not to... dong hai was veh fast... and the percussion was noisy!!! Before i knew it it was over...encore matsuri...decided i cud finally play as hard as i usually do... last song... that was i was guna play... as a member of RICO...
Still remembered i decided to join RICO partly cuz the matsuri that the 2003 batch played was impressive and nice... and now im ending my 4 years wif matsuri...
the audience continued clapping and shouting for encore even after matsuri... but just too bad mr yeo tot lemon tree was still not up to standard yet... so that was the end... felt quite sad... but went out and saw my classmates... yewei,jinkai,aaron,victor,justin,xianjie,mark,lionel,liangjie,darryl,weiqi... their comments were encouraging...they den took a class photo wif mingquan yujun and me... we were SOOOO noisy tt we attracted the attention of almost EVERYONE who was in SCH... 100+ pple loh... not a few... everyone was looking at us but we din care the least bit... 4J'06 ROX!!!!! Here's the picture:
Thanks guys! For coming down to support!! Then got lollipops from wenjun... so nice... den went onto photo taking madness again... failed to take a proper photo wif yiheng again... hanged around in SCH wif yiliang mervin ++ also... mervin said:"Hen hao, zhe ci xian mei you duan" haha... he watched the myriad performance and saw wad happened...so diu lian... cudn't bear to leave...
Hope i din leave out anything... will edit if i realize i did....
Learnt so much in this concert... Also realized how lucky I am to have known friends who are so hard to say goodbye to.... 4J'06/RICO'06!!!!!!